Your midwife is a charlatan,please,get rid of her..looks like to me you do need them atbs,check with your doc.when i had to have them,i didnt want to pass them so i dumped pumped milk,since i always rotated a couple of litres of frozen bm in the freezer.but someatbs now are usable,consult your obgyn and pharmacy boss.good luck and,no guilt!