apartment hunt literally gives me huge rage. being an Asian and master student with no income, it's basically impossible. so through out my master study, i have stayed with an old couple and a dog and a cat, then in an old hospital dorm waiting to be torn down with Somalian and Ethiopian immigrants, then in a tiny room next to a tram stop with no kitchen but has a ridiculously high rent (960 chf).

and now, on the hunt again, because the landlord decided to put a small kitchen into the tiny room and almost doubled the rent.

and yes, i've tried wg's. but i think swiss people are mentally programmed to despise Chinese. I really feel sorry to say this but my experience lead me to think this way.

and i'm especially pissed at the WOKO thing, the so called student housing in zurich. they have many properties through out the city, at very cheap rates. but those housing are mostly occupied by swiss students. if one is moving out, the rest of the WOKO wg would hold an interview to pick a new tenant. as a result, all woko wg's occupied by swiss, with some portion of german or other europeans, ocassionally a few americans or canadians, i only know one woko 2er wg by two taiwanese. so here is the question to woko: choice a, you give more housing to foreign students, let the swiss students to look for other types of housing, because they are more likely to have other contacts and get along with non-student/working swiss people; choice b, you give most of your housing to swiss student, let the foreign students to deal with the insane rental market in zurich. is it a fking hard choice to make?

being turned down by a rental agency feels more or less like a job application being turned down. but being turned down by a wg is way more personal. it seriously makes you question if you are just socially unacceptable, especially if you have been rejected by too many...

seriously, this nonsense has made me cynical, antisocial, and having excessive rage. i somehow easily associate this wohnung suchen frustration with the "nice guy" phenomenon in the dating game. i know i am a decent person and have some skills, one day i probably will earn some money, enough to make a good living, and with that i will probably receive some "attention" and "respect" that i have never received when i was just a student. then i would not be happy at all, instead i would really feel disgusted, and i would not be willing to contribute any of my knowledge to benefit this sick society, nor to share a penny with some young pretty lady...

sorry, i know all this may sounds illogical or funny. i guess i would also laugh at those words years from now...

btw, if you have any good tips in dealing with rage, i think i could use some these days. still gonna have my master defense in about 2 months, and hopefully won't be homeless by then.