congratulations! just seconding what everyone else has said, i found b/feeding horrendously hard for the 1st couple of months and was exhausted and hacked off with people telling me how marvellous and bonding it all was..BUT it gets much, much easier as you both work out what you're doing and settle into more of a pattern (but if you don't continue for any reason, then please don't feel at all bad). there's quite a good US site (i think) called http://www.kellymom.com which has info and advice. i used a 'hospital grade' breastpump which looked gruesome but was very efficient and speedy and meant that my husband could do the 11pm feed and i could get some sleep until the next one. i also found going out and meeting other new/terrified mothers in the same position was really helpful. good luck!