All packed and ready to go. My furniture's already gone to storage until I find a permanent place, flight's booked for Sunday.

But ... this evening one of my oldest closest friends was found dead in his bed. He was only 48. In so much shock, everything's up in the air now.

I hope I don't sound selfish as I should be thinking about my lost friend and I am honestly. I just feel so bad leaving my friends when they need me so much. I knew this weekend was going to be hard but I never saw this one coming.

RIP Steve my friend, you were like a brother to me.

I'm so very sorry to hear about your friend. You have every right to be conflicted at this time. Don't beat yourself up for all the various thoughts that will be going through your head.

My sincere condolences.

If i was you i would cancel my ticket and be with your friends and family during this sad time.

Switzerland will still be here in a few days...

And i am sure that there is someone on here that can go and pick up keys or whatever for you. Just ask.

Sorry to hear about your loss, but think, a good friend would want you to carry on, I know I would.