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Quoting me, but calling it Uncle Max.That is VERY naughty. Be careful you don't land in the naughty corner. I'd know my phraseology anywhere!

So true. Fear does paralyze you.

You need to put yourself first, though. The job is taking much more than what you gain back. Essentially, you're working for free. I'm sure CHF16.- an hour is much less than what you are paying mentally. Sometimes we have to be selfish in life and if a job is making you this unhappy, it is simply not worth it. In your heart, you know this.

BUT having said that, I also understand deeply that you don't want to leave the job/ stay at home. I am like that too. I put my duties and ambitions first, at the price of my own mental strain. Use your hatred for your boss as your motivation to quit

Don't think of it as 'leaving your job'. Think of it as 'leaving a stress zone/ a horrible boss'. Because sweetheart, that's exactly what it is you would be leaving.

Look after yourself.

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