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| || |Hi weertruffle,
it has been nearly a month since your post.. been feeling any better? Hope so
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Thank you so much for asking, and sorry for taking so long to respond
I do feel better! I did a number of things:
1. I stopped consuming dairy and my guts seemed to calm down. This weekend I reintroduced cheese (we went to Ticino - it was in EVERYTHING) and so far so good.... So I'm hoping the problem is perhaps on the milk/yoghurt side of things.
2. I acknowledged to myself how unhappy I am here. I'm frightened that the ten years I spent building my legal career will go to waste, frightened that the job I'm doing, which I would have turned my nose up at as a graduate, is making me stupid, frightened that the resentment will start to affect my otherwise fantastic relationship, frightened that I'm so unhappy I'm in no fit state to start a family, which was the reason we wanted to settle here in the first place. Fear is present on a larger and more permanent scale than I've ever experienced before (I know there are a large number of similar and just heart breaking posts on this topic on EF).
3. I'm trying live day by day. The days are generally manageable. The people I work with are great and together we face the idiocy of what we're having to do because international legal experience counts for so little here. I go to the gym, I take beautiful walks, I come home to my lovely boyfriend. I get to do things like go to Ticino for the weekend! I LIKE living here. I am determined to make this work!
Sooo...this was a very long-winded way of saying, I feel better! Thank you for asking, that was very sweet.